BF just left…again. This time it’s only for 3 weeks but i’m so tired of doing this separation thing. 1 year and a half to go and then we can start our lives together by closing the distance.
the next module starts tomorrow and it’s short but fast paced so it’s pedal to the metal until then! Best of luck to all!!
doodling my way through school
THIS WEBSITE IS THE BEST!!! I’ve been using to help me with my ortho/neuro exam tomorrow and i’m sure i’ll be using it for the rest of the didactic year. just wanted to pass this goodness along!! enjoy!
[fingers crossed for my exam tomorrow]
whew! this one came up fast!! I’m more nervous about this one than usual - it’s half neuro so that’s not fun. I had hoped that maybe by module 4 i would have some additional confidence at least going into exams but i don’t and at this point, i’m not sure i ever will. I have a PD practical on tuesday and then the module exam wednesday - then it’s Tgiving!!!
i’ll get to see my family, have turkey, hang out with the bf..i just have to make it through until then…
Initiating the use of the tag PAblr for pre-pa students, pa-s peeps, and pa-c peeps that are on tumblr after several suggestions for “PAblr” as our tag!
While we share many similarities in training and experiences with #medblr, I think the responsibilities of our training, career, and preparation…
PAblr starts!! Signal booosst!!
I cannot let myself lose faith right now!! I need to believe in myself more than ever as the material gets tougher and more than ever is piled on. I haven’t been doing well in ortho (despite LOVING it) and it’s so discouraging so I feel myself starting to slip away mentally and just go through the motions again. I want to do well and I want to keep loving this specialty so I must keep going…
This is a great question. And the answer completely depends on what you consider as ‘having a life’. I see my friends from home about 2x/month for maybe dinner or a half-day outting and I see my bf (who lives in another state) about 1x per month depending on both of our schedules.
I live with my parents which is great because I save tons of money but it also means that I don’t have to cut time out of my schedule each module end to see them because i see them every night when I come home. I still exercise at least several times each weekend and most days of the week. I still talk to friends on the phone on my drive home or when i’m too tired to study and need a break. I skype with my bf every night which isn’t ideal but it’s as good as it gets sometimes. I also still watch a movie once in awhile and still maintain my interests and hobbies outside of PA school.
Is it hard? most days, yea, but honestly, you get into a grove and once you figure out the best way to a lot your time, it’s a ton more manageable. It took me almost 1 year of PA school to finally feel like I have some sort of handle on how to best budget my time but now that i’m there I feel better about the stress and situation.
I realize this probably was a much more vague answer than you were hoping for so if you have specific questions about how PA school affects certain aspects of my life please feel free to ask!
Today I found out one of my good friends in the program failed out. To say I was shocked and angry is an understatement. She’s a great person and will be a great PA when she decides to reapply and give it another try. Maybe this program wasn’t her best fit but I told her I see great potential in her and she should try to get in somewhere else if she still wants this.
I am angry at my program right now. I am sure the stress i’m under has decreased my threshold for bullsh*t but this most recent cut has really made me wonder who will be next. Not to sound negative but I know of one student who is horribly close and it has made me extra nervous about my own fate.
Studying hard and knowing the material isn’t enough anymore. There is a huge component of luck that goes into who will pass exams and anyone who denies that is either REALLY lucky or foolish. Sure studying hard will greatly increase your chances of passing but if you are being tested on 4 weeks and over 20 lectures-worth of material, someone is bound to get a batch a questions they didn’t understand as well as some other material. All we can do is study our hardest and do our best and HOPE that’s enough because unfortunately - sometimes, it just isn’t.
My friend studied her ass off and worked harder than majority of the people in the class but for some reason, she just struggled this year. She is smart and knows her stuff so I have faith in her ability to become a great PA and I hope she sees that too. I also have to work really hard not to resent the students who pass each and every exam but do not work hard and neglect the great opportunity they have to enter this field. I will not take anything for granted anymore and I will just worry about me and what I have to do to guarantee whatever amount of success I can.
Today was hard because I felt like I was saying goodbye to a great friend forever but I need to remind myself that we will still chat and be good friends - it will just be different now. She remains positive and is using this new-found time off to prepare herself for her next adventure so I am happy for her in that respect.
I hope I am able to take a positive attitude about this as well. Perhaps this is a time for me to branch out of my current circle of friends and really try to get along with other people who I may not be fond of at the present time. I have some new friends this year but I am going to try to be more pleasant to everyone - regardless of how I feel about them.
I am almost halfway through this program and have only 3 more modules until rotations and to screw up now would be sad and unacceptable. I will take control of what’s in my power to take control of and the rest will either fall into place or won’t but regardless, I do not want any regrets. Lastly, I will NOT take for granted how lucky and blessed I am to be where I am and be doing what I love. I must always keep the big picture in my mind and not neglect to be thankful and appreciative for where I am in life.
3 Modules down… 3 to go
then it’s off to rotations - which scares me to no end but I am holding to the hope that it will be better than just sitting in a classroom memorizing material.
It’ll be a long 2 more months but I cannot wait to start something new and be officially halfway through PA school.
best of luck to everyone!